The mere planning for the coming final examination together with my schedule for work is no easy thing to juggle. Nonetheless, i still have that optimistic side of me looking always at the brighter side and it has been a year now since i am doing this kind of lifestyle. hopefully, i'll be able to make it or atleast finish my first year in law school.

Actually, as of the moment, i am still at the verge of thinking whether or not I would still continue it while working or file a leave and work first. Although I know my parents could actually send me to school. the guilt of already being a graduate for an undergraduate degree is burdening me. I am on the mindset that my parents' responsibilities for me has already expired upon graduating and I may say they did it well. Anything beyond that, it will be my burden to shoulder on.

Lawschool, as I always say to my peers, is either something to be like or uninterest about. But at present, i may say that I am still trying to cope up with it. It is a very demanding career, beyond words if I may say so. Thus, so is my work. Question is, until when? It's a process, I may say. It is something that could not happen overnight like most things are. Though I keep myself on focus for that thin line that separates process as a reason and process as an excuse. The latter being the most used reason for an excuse. Not an excuse for a reason.

But thinking about it, Lawschool is not actually that hard. What is harder is the expectation people around, imposed to you. Expectations coming from your family, relatives, friends or just even people who you have been acquianted with and knew that your taking up law. Expectations that are either directly or indirectly expressed could probably the heaviset baggage one can burden. Probably that is why most people fail and opt out to other profession. But I understand them. It is not merely a simply baggage that you could unpack in an instant. It is slow pause in which forever is just a tick of another's second. It is like an unending war of the mind, will and conscience. Where the goal is humility and acceptance of being human. The fact that everyone should consider that in some point we are vulnerable, defenseless at some point also weak. The realization that separates us from being perfect, or what is commonly known as human.

Although other may say that others did survive how come some can't. Basically because we are all different. Different in strenghts and weaknesses that are anchored and encompassed by different opportunities and environment. Probably taking up law like most of the other professions humanity have and will have is a matter of calling. Calling that comes from the whispers of one's self and not the clamour of what is outside.

Nonetheless, as of teh moment, I'll be needing to move my ears much closer to my self.